Are you looking to enjoy the beauty of life with someone OR are you looking for someone to avoid loneliness in life?

Both these searches have very different outcomes.

If you are seeking to enjoy the beauty of life with someone, you will look for what you want in your life i.e. companionship, joy of sharing etc … so, you will look for people that match your personality type, your mindset, your thought process, your way of looking at life, your preferences.

And, because life works on a lag principle and because these aren’t objective parameters, it may take some time to find that person…that one person who completes your life’s jigsaw. Worst case scenario, you may never find that person, and if that happens, you will end up enjoying half the beauty of life.

On the other hand, if you are seeking to avoid loneliness, you will look for what you don’t want in life i.e. not feeling alone…so, you will look for a person who will engage you intellectually, emotionally or physically in a positive or a negative fashion.

Largely anyone and everyone will fit your requirement because short term engagement is easy…even a monkey can do that. Do I need to tell you that sooner or later you will get tired of this person and s/he will get tired of you, and then you will feel cheated, and, again you will begin your search for that someone to avoid loneliness.

Ask yourself - What am I looking for?

PS : I am blessed I know who I love! He doesn't know it but I do! Now I am free of the search!

THE HEART-POUNDING TRUTH

Truth is often not easy, or comfortable.

Truth can make you sweat.
It can make your legs shake, your heart pound.
It can pull the rug of certainty from under your feet.
It can destroy comfort, the status quo.

But it can make you feel alive like nothing else.
It can rip your heart open to love.
It can connect you in ways you never thought possible.

Live your deepest truth today, even if it means losing everything - your pride, your status, your image, your way of life.

For the lies, the half-truths and the burden of unspoken things will eventually suffocate you and everyone around you.

Know that you can only lose what's non-essential, anyway.

Give up everything
for a truthful existence.

The Touch So Vital~
Though my arms
cannot hold you,
nor console you,

let’s each reach out anyway
with a roaring river of faith,
knowing that love sent

flows to you, through you
out to the world and back
home again, your arms,

my arms, the Beloved’s
arms, all encircling
each of us in a woolen

blanket of social embrace,
so that yet though our distance
is physical, our presence

with each of us is the vital touch,
our hearts are longing to hold.~

PS Holding you in love and gentle intention... my sweet sweet love... be safe be safe

Falling apart, holding it all together. Then falling apart, then holding all together again. Cycles of integration and disintegration. Chaos and cohesion. Stillness and rest. As with the ocean, the stars, the sun, and the moon, love is pouring through you, washing away everything that is less than whole, preparing you for what is next. But what is next is always of the unknown and never understood ahead of time by means of the conceptual.

Look carefully and see that you can never truly 'fall apart,' because you were never 'together' to begin with. You are the vast space in which 'together' and 'apart' dance in union in the world of time and space. Please don't forget what you are.

If you remain too identified with the falling apart, you disintegrate; you lose contact with the radiance within you, and you become misattuned to the unfolding of your somatic experience, which is the movement of pure, luminous wisdom. You forget how intelligent and how creative it is inside you, and that you are never, ever in need of fixing. You forget that the darkness, when provided sanctuary, is brighter than a thousand suns inside you.

But if you remain too identified with holding it all together, you disconnect from your vulnerability, you turn from the wild reality that your heart could break at any moment. You forget that it is through your brokenness that your gifts pour into this world. You forget that each and every crack in your heart is an illumined portal through which the poetry of your life will flow.

Right in the middle of falling apart and holding it together is the secret place. Stay there. For it is there where the light and the dark are in union, where integration and disintegration emerge as one in love, and where lunar and solar weave together the particles of the sacred world.

I love you...

Another letter for you...

Someone who I feel with my heart and soul, someone who I just adore and love so much.

I feel so heartbroken that I could never tell you how much you just your being means to me... but I still shine and smile and feel full of life. And I know why.... this is love. Pure unconditional devotion. Where it would have been just the fulfillment of this eternal yearning to have you feel the same... the yearning itself is also love. The heartbreak is also love... the feeling to just hold you in my arms and kiss you softly is also love. To know and respect and acknowledge that you are not mine is also love.

To not look at you as much as I want to is also love.  To wish you well and pray from afar and in silence for you is also love. To see how full of love and goodness you are is also love. To know that I could walk through a wall of fire if it meant your wellbeing is also love. To try and get involved with another though none will ever have my heart just so I can try and forget you is also love.

Actually, now my whole life is a testament of just how I love you... the joy that I may give others is your love. If someone feels happy because of me is just the love I feel for you.... I am nothing now just the love I have in my heart for you.

I wish I could be the cup that you sip tea from, I wish I could be the socks that keep your feet warm, I wish I could be the little child who you hug haha (so at least I could feel your touch) I wish I could be the vest that keeps your chest warm. I wish I could be the bird on your window I would sing you a sweet song. Know just know that you are loved beyond measure beyond reason, deeply, silently, calmly, smilingly, sometimes even through tears... you are LOVED!

Love is a beautiful exchange.

But somewhere down the track it may not seem like it any more. Maybe the feeling of being in love is not the same as it used to be. Perhaps one person in the relationship had become guarded and has their heart partially closed. Or possibly there are emotional wounds that are beginning to fester and causing a division. But that doesn’t stop love. …

Love remains a beautiful exchange.

And the soul knows it. If two people recognize that it was love that brought them together in the first place, and if they really want the relationship to succeed and are prepared to do the soul work together, then that’s enough for the miracle of love to blossom. Nothing is too difficult for love. …

Love continues to be a beautiful exchange.

Despite the fact that no relationship is perfect, love is. At the core of love is selflessness. It’s the desire to give out of our wholeness, without being concerned about what’s-in-it-for-me. And the more we understand that love is who we are, that it freely flows to us from a divine source, our eyes will be opened to see the magnificence of giving without concern for what we get back in offering our heart. …

Love will forever be a beautiful exchange.

These are days

These are days you'll remember
Never before and never since
I promise
Will the whole world be warm as this
And as you feel it
You'll know it's true
That you are blessed and lucky
It's true that you
Are touched by something
That will grow in you, in you

These are days you'll remember
When May is rushing over you with desire
To be part of the miracles you see in every hour
You'll know it's true that you are blessed and lucky
It's true that you
Are touched by something
That will grow and bloom in you

These are days

These are the days you might fill with laughter until you break
These days you might feel a shaft of light
Make its way across your face
And when you do you'll know how it was meant to be
See the signs and know their meaning
It's true
You'll know how it was meant to be
Hear the signs and know they're speaking to you, to you

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In sacred union we grow as one.~

Sometimes one will be more mature in one area than the other and that is when we encourage growth and not tear down or belittle. We compassionately hold space as the other catches up. As twin flames we share the core wound, meaning there was a childhood trauma that manifested the same wound, but is often handled with polar coping mechanisms.

While one may turn hard and become hardened and avoidant of love, the other may turn soft and become softer and addicted to love. Yet these two different expressions of the same wound are still rooted in abandonment and fear of being abandoned again. One pushes love away in order to be in control and the other latches on to love in order to be in control.

However, the cure is the same. To let love enter and love deeply. But how can we let love in when we are afraid of love in case it can be taken from us? And how can we let love in and actually keep it without becoming too attached and push it away with fear? We have to learn to see our inner child in ourselves and each other.
And parent ourselves and the partner when triggered and hurting.

How would you treat a child that is afraid?
How would you show a child it is safe?
How would you love a child so it knows unconditional love?

This is how we must learn to love ourselves and our partners.
To care for our inner child and theirs from the embodiment of the divine parent.
To love like God loves is divine.
And it is possible with mindfulness and emotional healing to get to this place.

The next time you have a fight with your partner, swallow your pride and need to be right. Be loving. Be gentle. Be kind.

Ask them, how can I best love you right now? How can I show up for you in this moment? Then create a safe container for sharing traumas, fears and concerns without the threat of abandonment.
Without violent communication.
Peacefully negotiate a compromise through navigating and communicating.

This is how we create sacred union.
This is how we heal deep trauma.
This is how we truly love deeply.
This is how we"re rewarded with the deepest intimacy.

STAGES OF LOVE !! 💟💟

Love can exist in three ways:

The first is love as a relationship. One is loving only to a certain person, and that too at certain moments. When the person agrees with you, is according to you, is fulfilling your expectations, when he is just a shadow to you and you can possess him, then you are loving.

There are a thousand and one conditions in relationships. The moment any single condition is not fulfilled love disappears. Love turns into hatred any moment. The same person for whom you would have died -- you can kill him. So that is the lowest kind of love, love as relationship.

Next comes the second kind of love. It is not a relationship; one is simply loving. It has nothing to do with somebody in particular, one is loving whether one is alone or with someone. One is loving with the trees, with the river, with the mountains. Sitting alone in one's room one is loving. Then love is just like the fragrance of a flower -- whether somebody is present or not does not matter.

This is transforming love from something very ordinary and animal into something extraordinary and human. Now love becomes a quality.

There is one stage more, higher than that, but first one has to attain this second. And the second is the most important, even more important than the third, the highest, because once the second is there the third is bound to follow. You need not do anything about it.

The first is love as a relationship, the second is lovingness and the third is when one becomes love itself, so one is not even conscious that one is loving. In the second there is consciousness a certain self-consciousness that one is loving. That is the only flaw left. But you cannot remove it yourself, because if you do then again you will be there. Then more self-consciousness will arise: 'Look how great I am -- I have removed the last flaw! Now I am love, pure love.' But that 'I' is still there.

You cannot do anything; once you have attained to the second, you have to wait for the third -- it comes as a gift from God. It always comes. You deserve it because you have attained the second. Then one day suddenly the self-consciousness disappears and only pure love is left. Everybody will feel it; only you will not be conscious of it. And the more you are without self-consciousness, the more others will feel it.

So attain the second, and leave the third for God.

Every human being goes through periods of suffering. For probably 95% of spiritual seekers it was suffering that motivated the searching. Often, searching is an attempt to remove yourself from the experience of human suffering, the experience of what the mind would perceive as the human predicament.

But when you are truly open, when there is no attempt to get away from anything and there is the recognition that everything is in exact alignment always, then the heart is open. When the heart is open either meeting your own emotional issues or, as it gets larger, meeting tragedy that is always going on in the world, what occurs is this love, that is not asking for anything, receiving the feeling of what is being broken down and lost, and that meeting cracks the heart open like nothing else can. It deepens the passion and the compassion for the poignancy of human life, and the compassion becomes imbibed. I'm sure everyone has seen movies where someone is going through some tragedy in their life and at the end they meet their lover who has been searching for them and they embrace and there are all kinds of eruptions of emotion. The meeting sets something off in the heart like nothing else.

There is a depth of richness of this pure love which has no past and no story and thus it has no fear. It's not searching, not seeking, not running, it's not looking to be in service, it's just here, existing in the human plane. Where there is so much tragedy in the human plane, there is joy and beauty. And though it isn’t looked for, when the flavor of that comes in, there is this heartbreaking beauty.

Something becomes more alive in the deeper recesses of the heart. Begin to feel the beauty that's always beauty in your case, because carrying this love there is the meeting with what is broken. It's like the end of the movie where someone has been imprisoned and breaks out or is treated unfairly and is broken but meets their lover and there is embrace. You begin to realize you are the embrace and you also are what is broken. There is nothing that is more rich. So ironic that what the mind trying to get away from and deny is discovered to be like the rich earth tones, the exquisite beauty of humanhood.

It is never about looking for anything. It is never about changing anything or trying to fix something that your mind perceives as wrong in the external. This may arise organically but it's not about that. It's about being still. When you are still you are the recipient of everything. You feel the infinite nature that is untouched and you feel the whole play of humanhood. Then when what is misunderstood and lost and acting out comes into the heart, you feel this melting. It's not that you are the sage and what is lost is coming to you. You are all of it. There are no levels. You feel what it is to be completely broken. You feel the love that is the Beingness, meeting this. What comes out is a deeper and deeper sense of humility. A deeper and deeper sense of compassion. A deeper aliveness in the earth tones of the Heart. And what is discovered is that fear begins to fade away.

The movement to get away from anything that the mind sees as suffering, wrong, hurtful is normally unconscious and it goes unrecognized that this movement is fear. But when you are receiving everything, you discover the beauty that is in everything in all of the different flavors of what it has to offer. You are planted where you are, you receive what is offered, and what is being received and the receiver are recognized to be inseparable.

The fundamental fragility of the human psyche becomes so tender and beautiful. Every human being searches for love. Every human being has experienced suffering. Mind's idea is that the love is the answer and the suffering is what we want to get away from but true love is the open pool. All the animals in the forest can come and drink out of it. It does not discriminate. It's just there to quench the thirst and then the fluid that goes into the mouth of the animal becomes part of that being.

When you are clear, there is such exquisite beauty in what the mind calls tragedy. It is a meeting of what is being experienced as separate, alone and fear-driven with what is universal, kind and loving. It all exists within the Heart.

As the sensitivity grows and you begin to feel more and more in a larger and larger sphere, there is an aspect to the earth tones of the heart that always feels this incredibly beautiful and rich poignancy. What is discovered is there is no such thing as "bad". The byproduct is that the love becomes so rooted there even begins to be the feeling of celebration in the meeting of human tragedy. Nothing is excluded. Nothing is separate from the Self. And the nature of the Self is it comes back for itself.

Your nature is completely divine. Limitless. Untouched. And at the same time you are here in this human experience that offers something to the Heart that is beyond description

You know on the level of quantum mechanics, on the most fundamental, elemental level everything is interspersed with everything. Nothing is separate. It's been shown that the entire universe is contained within the smallest measurable unit of size - thousands upon thousands of times smaller than an atom - because distance is an illusion. What is real is not in the arena of location. The feeling of the Heart is not bound by location. It's not in a specific spot. It's not in the arena of the mind's creation of distance.

We are all in this together. Everything is your brother or your sister. It's all the Beloved. It's all yourself. There is no separation except in the mind. When you are fully humbled and open and something moves across the sphere of your awareness that seems hurtful or ignorant, there is not the feeling that it is anything other than me. Because everything is you. It is taken in, and it is met, and the beauty of the meeting is the richness of humanhood meeting divinity.

It all exists within the Heart. The smallest measurable unit contains the entire cosmos. Nothing is separate from anything else. We are all of it. Just feel the beauty of the poignancy of all of it. You know it has been reported by astronauts who have looked back at the earth from great distance that while there is destruction and decay and horror and beauty, life eating life, and destruction and creation, looking at the earth from great distance the totality of it is just this feeling in the heart—of Home. You are Home. There's nowhere to go. Feel the totality of the full expression. Perhaps you can feel the richness of all of it. All of it.

In a world dominated by ego, it is difficult for many of you, as you struggle with ego, to assume the virtues and qualities of a master. When one assumes the virtue of humbleness, one begins to understand that all is forthcoming in perfect and divine order, as this virtue is of great importance in your quest for mastery.

It is a most important layer of your growth, a final release of the domination of ego over self. Ego is a great deterrent as you walk the straight and narrow path to mastery. As you become humble, the ego falls away, allowing you new growth and the area where your ego held you in slavery may now be filled with the light of Love. Each time you allow the ego to dominate, you maintain your position within the third/fourth dimension. Ego will separate you from your inner Divine self; ego will cause you great pain and suffering. You will find that each time you are caught up in the demands of the ego; you will most likely speak and act from your ego. When you set aside the ego, you clear the pathway to speak and act from love, from your higher self and from your inner divine wisdom.

You must ask for your ego to come under the direction of your Soul self. It was never meant for the ego to direct your life and to be in control of your affairs. The ego was meant to function in harmony with your Divine self. As you fell from grace, into the third dimension, your ego took over, causing you great pain and suffering. As you closed the portals to your heart, the ego was given free will to dominate you. As you return to balance and harmony, you must bring the ego under the direction of your Divine self. The ego serves an important function within your daily lives. It helps you maintain balance and harmony and assertiveness, when it is functioning under the guidance of the Soul self. Unchecked, the ego leads you to the emotions of guilt, shame, anger, aggressiveness, fear, and all lower emotions which will impede your path back to your unity with your inner Divine self.

As you assume the virtue of humbleness, you will find that love follows, as to be humble one must love. The heart center must be filled with love; there must be assertiveness, yet gentleness. There must be wisdom, there must be kindness, there must be the virtues and aspects given to you by the Creator, as you descended into your physical expression. Open your hearts, and allow the very thought of humbleness to permeate your being. As you focus on this divine expression, you lift yourself up and into the place of love, for love is the highest vibration. Those who achieve the state of humbleness integrate a great step on their path towards self mastery. A most blessed profound, virtue to integrate, Dear Ones. Be steadfast, it is another layer, another step of your growth, as you find your way back to your home among the stars.

THE DARKNESS AND THE LIGHT

Luke Skywalker: "Is the dark side stronger?"
Yoda: "No, no, no. Quicker, easier, more seductive..."

- Star Wars: The Empire Strikes Back

Humans have always thought in terms of abstract and conceptual mind-created opposites. God and the devil, life and death, pleasure and pain, good and evil, yin and yang; my truth versus your truth, my God versus your God, my religion versus your religion, even duality versus nonduality. Some people see life as a never-ending battle between darkness and light. Some hope that the light will win. Some take the side of the darkness.

But is there really a war? Shadows only appear when there's a source of light. Shadows have no existence separate from light, no true power of their own. Shadows cannot truly oppose light, for without light they are nothing at all. They receive all their power from light. They are utterly dependent.

Light never needs to fear the shadows or long for their death or destruction. True light knows no opposite, no opposition, no mortal enemy. We pay so much attention to the darkness, to the 'negative' aspect, to the shadows, to what we see as the "absence of light", not realising that the only reason we can recognise the darkness is because the light is still very much switched on. No light, no darkness.

And we are that light, the timeless light of consciousness itself.

Do not fight the darkness. Use the appearance of darkness to remind you of the ever-present source of light that you are. Don't oppose the shadows you see, but know yourself as that timeless and limitless light of consciousness with ever more conviction and clarity, and you will come to realize that darkness was never 'against' you at all - it was only a reminder to never forget who you are, to wake up from the dream of opposites and end the division in yourself.

The war between darkness and light can never be won, for it never actually began.

So shine on with courage!

Self-care is often a very unbeautiful thing.

It is making a spreadsheet of your debt and enforcing a morning routine and cooking yourself healthy meals and no longer just running from your problems and calling the distraction a solution.

It is often doing the ugliest thing that you have to do, like sweat through another workout or tell a toxic friend you don’t want to see them anymore or get a second job so you can have a savings account or figure out a way to accept yourself so that you’re not constantly exhausted from trying to be everything, all the time and then needing to take deliberate, mandated breaks from living to do basic things like drop some oil into a bath and read Marie Claire and turn your phone off for the day.

A world in which self-care has to be such a trendy topic is a world that is sick. Self-care should not be something we resort to because we are so absolutely exhausted that we need some reprieve from our own relentless internal pressure.

True self-care is not salt baths and chocolate cake, it is making the choice to build a life you don’t need to regularly escape from.

And that often takes doing the thing you least want to do.

It often means looking your failures and disappointments square in the eye and re-strategizing. It is not satiating your immediate desires. It is letting go. It is choosing new. It is disappointing some people. It is making sacrifices for others. It is living a way that other people won’t, so maybe you can live in a way that other people can’t.

It is letting yourself be normal. Regular. Unexceptional. It is sometimes having a dirty kitchen and deciding your ultimate goal in life isn’t going to be having abs and keeping up with your fake friends. It is deciding how much of your anxiety comes from not actualizing your latent potential, and how much comes from the way you were being trained to think before you even knew what was happening.

If you find yourself having to regularly indulge in consumer self-care, it’s because you are disconnected from actual self-care, which has very little to do with “treating yourself” and a whole lot do with parenting yourself and making choices for your long-term wellness.

It is no longer using your hectic and unreasonable life as justification for self-sabotage in the form of liquor and procrastination. It is learning how to stop trying to “fix yourself” and start trying to take care of yourself… and maybe finding that taking care lovingly attends to a lot of the problems you were trying to fix in the first place.

It means being the hero of your life, not the victim. It means rewiring what you have until your everyday life isn’t something you need therapy to recover from. It is no longer choosing a life that looks good over a life that feels good. It is giving the hell up on some goals so you can care about others. It is being honest even if that means you aren’t universally liked. It is meeting your own needs so you aren’t anxious and dependent on other people.

It is becoming the person you know you want and are meant to be. Someone who knows that salt baths and chocolate cake are ways to enjoy life – not escape from it.

Lose yourself...

Lose yourself in this love.
When you lose yourself in this love,
you will find everything.

Lose yourself,
Lose yourself.
Do not fear this loss,
For you will rise from the earth
and embrace the endless heavens.

Lose yourself,
Lose yourself.
Escape from this earthly form,
For this body is a chain
and you are its prisoner.
Smash through the prison wall
and walk outside with the kings and princes.

Lose yourself,
Lose yourself at the foot of the glorious King.
When you lose yourself
before the King
you will become the King.

Lose yourself,
Lose yourself.
Escape from the black cloud
that surrounds you.
Then you will see your own light
as radiant as the full moon.

Now enter that silence.
This is the surest way
to lose yourself....

What is your life about, anyway? -
Nothing but a struggle to be someone,
Nothing but a running from your own silence.

~ Rumi

He is absolute Freedom and She is absolute Love.

Love found herself rejected by Freedom and Freedom found himself imprisoned by Love.

And Love without Freedom is attachment and Freedom without Love is escape.

They turned away from each other, both searching for Enlightenment outside their own Shadow and Pain.

And both Love and Freedom felt lonely and they didn’t feel received.

Because Love is nothing without Freedom and Freedom is nowhere without Love.

But Love needs to Dive Deep on her own and Freedom needs to Show Up for himself

To remember the Truth of who they are and connect to their own Sacred Source

And instead of Falling apart, they are Falling together

In Unity.

Be careful with
a man’s heart.
It is a precious thing.

Vulnerability lives there
in equal measure
to courage.

Let him show you.
Hold him there.
Be openness.
Be space.
Be acceptance.
Be love.

When he has hopes,
say, “Tell me more,”
When he has fears,
say, “Tell me more.”

Let your body
be a cradle.

When he opens,
he may have tears.
Welcome each one.
Kiss them.

When he is
weary, say,
“Come,
put your head
in my lap
I will stroke
your hair
and love you.”

When he
is brave,
shine your eyes
at him
and let him see
your pride.

Open your heart
to him
Trust him
to feel it.

When he loves you,
really loves you,
surrender.

When he is handsome,
which is every day,
kiss him
tenderly,
with love.
Then lingeringly,
with deep passion.
Then more.
More.
More.

Know this:
His heart is yours.
There is no difference.
There is no difference.
When he gives it
to you,
treat it like a treasure.
There is no difference.

Once, I ran from fear
so fear controlled me.
Until I learned to hold fear like a newborn.
Listen to it, but not give in.
Honour it, but not worship it.
Fear could not stop me anymore.
I walked with courage into the storm.
I still have fear,
but it does not have me.

Once, I was ashamed of who I was.
I invited shame into my heart.
I let it burn.
It told me, "I am only trying
to protect your vulnerability".
I thanked shame dearly,
and stepped into life anyway,
unashamed, with shame as a lover.

Once, I had great sadness
buried deep inside.
I invited it to come out and play.
I wept oceans. My tear ducts ran dry.
And I found joy right there.
Right at the core of my sorrow.
It was heartbreak that taught me how to love.

Once, I had anxiety.
A mind that wouldn't stop.
Thoughts that wouldn't be silent.
So I stopped trying to silence them.
And I dropped out of the mind,
and into the Earth.
Into the mud.
Where I was held strong
like a tree, unshakeable, safe.

Once, anger burned in the depths.
I called anger into the light of myself.
I felt its shocking power.
I let my heart pound and my blood boil.
Listened to it, finally.
And it screamed, "Respect yourself fiercely now!".
"Speak your truth with passion!".
"Say no when you mean no!".
"Walk your path with courage!".
"Let no one speak for you!"
Anger became an honest friend.
A truthful guide.
A beautiful wild child.

Once, loneliness cut deep.
I tried to distract and numb myself.
Ran to people and places and things.
Even pretended I was "happy".
But soon I could not run anymore.
And I tumbled into the heart of loneliness.
And I died and was reborn
into an exquisite solitude and stillness.
That connected me to all things.
So I was not lonely, but alone with All Life.
My heart One with all other hearts.

Once, I ran from difficult feelings.
Now, they are my advisors, confidants, friends,
and they all have a home in me,
and they all belong and have dignity.
I am sensitive, soft, fragile,
my arms wrapped around all my inner children.
And in my sensitivity, power.
In my fragility, an unshakeable Presence.

In the depths of my wounds,
in what I had named “darkness”,
I found a blazing Light
that guides me now in battle.

I became a warrior
when I turned towards myself.

And started listening.

Don't go looking for stability in a partner
Don't go looking for stability in a relationship
Don't go looking for stability in a job
Don't go looking for stability in a bank account

If we are depending on anything or anyone
In our external world
To bring us permanent stability...

We are constantly going to be living in fear
Of losing our security
We are always going to be seeing ourselves
As victims of circumstance
And we are going to be disappointed
Over and over again

People grow apart
Relationships breakup
Jobs become redundant
Money is never enough

As humans we are continually transforming
Change is the only constant
Life is a journey into the unknown
And nobody can ever promise us tomorrow

We have to become
So empowered in our personal sovereignty
So solid in our inner strength
So grounded in our individual truth

So flowing in our flexibility
So unattached in our thoughts
So trusting in our divinity
So stable in ourselves ...

That we know we are able to rebuild
After whatever tremors crumble our foundations

We know we can fearlessly ride
Whatever tsunamis capsize our boat

We know we will graciously weather
Whatever storms clear our path

And we know
Without any doubt

That no-one
And nothing
Holds the power...

To uproot
Our internal stability

To be happy you have to be able to live from the heart. The courage to trust and follow no matter what. To have the Heart.
In fact the word “Courage” has the same Latin route as the French word “coeur” meaning “heart”.
The Courage to live from the heart. To have HEART. To travel at the speed of Love.
What do you Love? What makes you feel happy, not just think that you might be happy. Follow it.
Your heart knowing will take you there every time.
Be honest with yourself and Trust your Heart and action it.

I So Love You
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PS: And to follow your Heart is not to follow your emotions. which pull you through a "neediness".
Heart propels you through honesty, integrity, authenticity, sovereign Beingness.
And I am told that the speed of love is "the speed of light squared". I have never measured it. All I know is that it appears instantaneous because as soon as I feel it, it is EVERYWHERE.

One year ago, my life changed forever...

Hello, my love! So, today it is exactly one year of my heart and dreams being broken into a trillion pieces! Yet here I am, alive, smiling, happy (sometimes sad) ... you know why? Because I love you... :)

I remember the three days after this day one year ago, I just lay in bed, crying, didnt eat bathe felt like I had died. And how my Father held me in His embrace... He let me vent and fight with Him... and on the 4th day, He just gently picked me up and siad enough, get up and I did. Can I ever thank Him enough for being there for me? My joy and my smile is my thanks to Him.

And you... you who I just love with all my heart and soul, I had hoped body too. But that didnt happened. You who I don't even look at as much as I would like to. Because I know my eyes will give my love away... and now this love is just for me and the whole world, but cannot express to you. So you know what I did? I turned all this love towards myself and started treating myself the way I would have loved you. Because I want this love even if it has broken my heart to be my strength, my smile never ever my weakness (it is sometimes my tears, when I cry and cry but it is only love that I cannot give you so it flows from my eyes). Love is love even when it is not reciprocated. I mean you are a beautiful soul, and I cannot deny seeing that even if you are not part of my life. A good person will always be a good person. And our hearts should be big enough to acknowledge that.

I pray that you never ever know because I would never want you to feel sad in anyway and oh please never feel sorry for me. If anything, be proud of me. That even if I have mothing, I still hope and pray and smile and dance. That I have the courage to keep my heart open. That I trust in love, goodness, smiles, and have faith in everything working out the way it is meant to. Even if we dont always understand it.

And you know how I sit sedately when you are near when all I want to is run and hug you haha I imagine your look if I ever did that. But I never will as your dignity means so much to me. But sometimes I look at you and just want to kiss your nose and bite your hands lolol. I am so grateful for this safe space where I can record my feelings quietly so my heart lightens.

So when the desire to love you just makes me burst I kiss my palms and pray... for your happiness in every sphere of life, for your family as I know how much their well being means to you... I pray that you never have a sad moment and even if you do you always find the strength to live through them, that each day of your life is simple, peaceful, filled with smiles and delightful moments.

I hope my love reaches you without you knwoing its me and it makes you feel just so good about yourself, makes you walk tall and fill your heart with love.

I just love you!