It's my birthday! And I got the best birthday present ever... your smile!!! Was it my imagination or did you smile when you looked at me? :) I was already head over heels and now I am heels over head LOLOL the bliss of being in love... the sweet sorrow of never being able to tell you, or to hold your hand or to give you a sweet kiss... just to love you silently, profoundly and forever... I would never change my fate for another... for in loving you, I have found my reason for life... I live with a constant smile and your name echoing in my heart! May I always get to see you the days that I do and to see you happy and healthy! Bas... 

 FOR THE ONE I LOVE!

Think of me when you're lonely, 

because with my thoughts,I will keep you company.
Think of me, when you need love,
because I have so much to give you.
Think of me when you need a kiss,
because with my lips I would give you so many...
Think of me at least a second in the day.
because I never stop thinking of you.

So mnay hands to hold, yet I only want to hold yours...

So many voices to hear but I want to hear just yours...

So many arms to be in, but I want to be in yours...

So many eyes to look into, yet I I only want to look into yours...

I could be in love with so many hearts... but I have lost my heart to you!

 “As fire is the test of gold, adversity is the test of men.” ~Seneca

Nothing will test your character more than a cruel twist of fate. Sometimes fate dictates that the only way is through the abyss. And the abyss is not gentle. Sometimes you must be burned by the fires of hell before you're vulnerable enough to feel the healing light of heaven.

In those times it is good to have a healthy disposition toward bad experiences. It’s good to employ a birds-eye view perspective on the overall adventure; to implement the overview effect on one’s life.

Sure, we would all rather have good experiences rather than bad ones. But true adventure is never just rainbows, roses, glorious victory, and slain dragons. Most of the time it's dark skies, hot thorns, dismal defeat, and bloody wounds. And it is perhaps even more adventurous because of that fact.

You have more to learn from a so-called bad experience than from a good one. When you’re able to learn from the bad experiences and embrace them as a vital part of the journey, you’ll be better prepared to transform the bad into the good and the lows will be seen as adventures that make the highs even more rewarding.

The few days in a year that I get to see you everyday have passed. I have gathered in my heart all the moments that I saw you. I sit by myself, listen to some cheesy songs close my eyes and boom! there you are! I am learning about the nature of love. Love is silent, love is patient, love is eternal and it is a devotion. Love will destroy it own self but never wish another to be hurt for it's fulfillment. It will wait for it's fruit, even when it sits in a desert. Love may wish life to be different for self but NEVER at the cost of it being difficult for the beloved. And that is my thought. My heart breaks everyday, I cry everyday because I miss you but mever a prayer leaves my lips that my love maybe fulfilled at any cost, without consideration of people that may get hurt. The way my heart & soul recognises you is something beyond my will... but what I wish for, what I think is something I can work upon... and I dream, of a moment, maybe soon, maybe in another lifetime... when the stars align and the Gods bestow on my love this moment... where you will be in front of me, a small smile on your lips and your arms wide open and I will, with all my love & trust, walk into them and we will be happy forever!! hahahaa the bliss & madness of being a broken heart!!! Majnu here! Laila where???  Be happy, be the best you can be!!! 

 Falling in love with someone just waking up one day and realising that there is another human being who you just adore, no forcing, no trying, no conditions, just love... just living even away from them even with them not knowing yet loving loving loving them with all your heart and soul. Maybe not your body but knowing who you are for how awesome is that? I see people in relationships who are just together just for the sake of it. I may not be in a relationship with the one I love... but I DO know who I love! 

It breaks my heart everyday yet it also fills me with life at the same time! Knowing I hold you in the most precious thought and intention, how much you your well being your smile means to me! I live with this love filling my heart... I kiss my own hands like they be yours. I smile at the whole world because I somehow want the warmth to reach you... you may not know and I dont even want you to now. But it makes me happy just to sit alone say your name and tell the air around me that I love him! In the eyes of this world, I am crazy! But I'd rather be crazy than compromise, I'd rather have courage and be alone than give in to fear and be with someone just because I dont want to be alone. And I am doing it, I am... shaking trmebling sometimes anxious with fear... I am doing it!

Slowly, this fear is leaving my heart... and love is taking its place. And it is all beacuse of you... the man I love! 

As the new year unfolds, I wish for you all that you desire... all your dreams coming true and for me juts wish me love just wish me courage.

I LOVE you!

 “A happy life is impossible, the highest thing that man can aspire to is a heroic life.” ~Arthur Schopenhauer

Happiness is not a given. It takes discipline. When the chips are down, and your back is against the wall, happiness is an action verb. Being happy is about collapsing into something primordial inside yourself. It’s surrendering to the primal howl of humor.

It’s a letting go of expectations and just being present with that innate, awe-inspired, drunken smile within. That place of inner-Zen, where your heart leaps over itself like a little red trickster god despite the worst the universe can dish out.

The most important truth is this: you do not need a reason to be happy. Happiness is unreasonable. It comes from bearing unhappiness with courage.

 “Impermanence is more than an idea. It is a practice to help us touch reality.” ~Thich Nhat Hanh (RIP)

The best way to meditate on impermanence is in solitude, away from the things of man. Because it’s only in solitude where we realize that we are never truly alone.

Solitude teaches us how everything is connected to everything else in a terribly beautiful dance of impermanence. It teaches us how nothing remains the same.

Impermanence doesn’t let you off the hook. Indeed, “the hook” IS impermanence. It drags you kicking and screaming into the profound realization that you are not merely a speck in the universe, you are the entire universe in a speck. Sure, it’s all so terribly fleeting. Nothing lasts. Nothing is permanent. You will die…

But not yet. Unless you choose to live a dead life. Meditating on impermanence puts it all into proper perspective.

But it will also break your heart. And that’s okay. It probably needed to break. Just put it back together again stronger than before. Everything is transient. Everything is fleeting. On a long enough timeline, reality is ephemerality.

Meditating on impermanence will teach you humility, which will teach you humor, which will teach you how to honor the flash-in-the-pan impermanence of your life.

 

 My greatest desire in all the world is to hold and be held,

to Connect with a capital C.

To heal and be healed.

To see and be seen.

To love and be loved----fully. Completely.

Here I am....shouting it out to the world,

to all who read or don't read my words.

To all who take the time to connect. Or not.

I want to love with a capital L.

I want to crack wide open all that stands

in the way of true Truth and true

Love and True Colors.

I want to to hold your heart in mine

like it is my own. Because, really, it is.

Will you let me hold your heart in mine

just for a minute

just for one beautiful breath

or two?

I so want you to know how deeply

how very deeply

I Love

every single bit

of colorful you..!