Oct 21, 2019

Once, I ran from fear
so fear controlled me.
Until I learned to hold fear like a newborn.
Listen to it, but not give in.
Honour it, but not worship it.
Fear could not stop me anymore.
I walked with courage into the storm.
I still have fear,
but it does not have me.
Once, I was ashamed of who I was.
I invited shame into my heart.
I let it burn.
It told me, "I am only trying
to protect your vulnerability".
I thanked shame dearly,
and stepped into life anyway,
unashamed, with shame as a lover.
Once, I had great sadness
buried deep inside.
I invited it to come out and play.
I wept oceans. My tear ducts ran dry.
And I found joy right there.
Right at the core of my sorrow.
It was heartbreak that taught me how to love.
Once, I had anxiety.
A mind that wouldn't stop.
Thoughts that wouldn't be silent.
So I stopped trying to silence them.
And I dropped out of the mind,
and into the Earth.
Into the mud.
Where I was held strong
like a tree, unshakeable, safe.
Once, anger burned in the depths.
I called anger into the light of myself.
I felt its shocking power.
I let my heart pound and my blood boil.
Listened to it, finally.
And it screamed, "Respect yourself fiercely now!".
"Speak your truth with passion!".
"Say no when you mean no!".
"Walk your path with courage!".
"Let no one speak for you!"
Anger became an honest friend.
A truthful guide.
A beautiful wild child.
Once, loneliness cut deep.
I tried to distract and numb myself.
Ran to people and places and things.
Even pretended I was "happy".
But soon I could not run anymore.
And I tumbled into the heart of loneliness.
And I died and was reborn
into an exquisite solitude and stillness.
That connected me to all things.
So I was not lonely, but alone with All Life.
My heart One with all other hearts.
Once, I ran from difficult feelings.
Now, they are my advisors, confidants, friends,
and they all have a home in me,
and they all belong and have dignity.
I am sensitive, soft, fragile,
my arms wrapped around all my inner children.
And in my sensitivity, power.
In my fragility, an unshakeable Presence.
In the depths of my wounds,
in what I had named “darkness”,
I found a blazing Light
that guides me now in battle.
I became a warrior
when I turned towards myself.
And started listening.

Oct 6, 2019

Don't go looking for stability in a partner
Don't go looking for stability in a relationship
Don't go looking for stability in a job
Don't go looking for stability in a bank account
If we are depending on anything or anyone
In our external world
To bring us permanent stability...
We are constantly going to be living in fear
Of losing our security
We are always going to be seeing ourselves
As victims of circumstance
And we are going to be disappointed
Over and over again
People grow apart
Relationships breakup
Jobs become redundant
Money is never enough
As humans we are continually transforming
Change is the only constant
Life is a journey into the unknown
And nobody can ever promise us tomorrow
We have to become
So empowered in our personal sovereignty
So solid in our inner strength
So grounded in our individual truth
So flowing in our flexibility
So unattached in our thoughts
So trusting in our divinity
So stable in ourselves ...
That we know we are able to rebuild
After whatever tremors crumble our foundations
We know we can fearlessly ride
Whatever tsunamis capsize our boat
We know we will graciously weather
Whatever storms clear our path
And we know
Without any doubt
That no-one
And nothing
Holds the power...
To uproot
Our internal stability

Oct 2, 2019

To be happy you have to be able to live from the heart. The courage to trust and follow no matter what. To have the Heart.
In fact the word “Courage” has the same Latin route as the French word “coeur” meaning “heart”.
The Courage to live from the heart. To have HEART. To travel at the speed of Love.
What do you Love? What makes you feel happy, not just think that you might be happy. Follow it.
Your heart knowing will take you there every time.
Be honest with yourself and Trust your Heart and action it.
I So Love You
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PS: And to follow your Heart is not to follow your emotions. which pull you through a "neediness".
Heart propels you through honesty, integrity, authenticity, sovereign Beingness.
And I am told that the speed of love is "the speed of light squared". I have never measured it. All I know is that it appears instantaneous because as soon as I feel it, it is EVERYWHERE.