Two months...

Today is a day I am feeling so sad! haha not really... how can I even be sad when I love you so much?
 Love gives wings gives freedom gives a sweetness to our very existence.

But yes I do miss seeing you... as even a glimpse is enough to nourish my heart and satiate my soul. It has been 2 months! since I saw you... I miss you. I love you. I sing for you. I pray that you be safe and happy.

Being the "good" person I am... I had saved a few pictures of you that I would see and feel happy. When I realised that you are not mine in any way... I deleted them. I wish I hadn't now... I miss your face! I miss your smile... I miss your hands... I miss your being! But I know you are here, you are fine, you are healthy... and that gives me solace. Though I wish I had a pictue!! LOL Rantings of a lovelorn heart!

A song that always made me wonder and when I saw you it made sense...

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THE PARADOX OF LOVING

My love,
you cannot truly “be there” for another
until you learn to “be there” for yourself.

Be there for your breath as it rises and falls.
As it slows, quickens, deepens.
As the belly expands and contracts.
Be there. Be a loving witness
to this extraordinary power that moves through you.

Be there for all your feelings, not just the pleasant ones.
Be there for the grief and the anger, too.
The ease and the frustration.
Be there for the sorrow, the emptiness and the fullness,
the wildness and the calm, the life and the dying.

Be there for all your thoughts.
The ones you love and the ones you hate.
The ones that scare you and the ones you seek.
Be there as they arise and dissolve.
Stay there as they stay and go.

Be there for the broken heart
and be there for the healed one too.
Be there for the answers,
but don’t abandon the questions either.
Be there for the clarity,
but don’t neglect the confusion.

Be there for all of yourself, my love.
Like a mother, there for her children.

And you will be able
to be there for all of me.

Look after me by looking after you.
Find me by finding you.

This is the paradox of loving.

It’s okay to be scared. Fear is a part of the human experience.

It’s okay to grieve. Grief is a part of the human experience.

It’s okay to rest, even when so much is yet undone. Rest is a part of the human experience.

It’s okay to be angry, even when you have so much to be grateful for. Anger is a pert of the human experience.

It’s okay to be joyful, even when someone’s sky is falling. Joy is a part of the human experience.

It’s okay to feel broken. It’s okay to rearrange the pieces and create a mosaic instead of a puzzle picture with nice neat edges. It’s part of the human experience.

It’s okay to be abundant, even when others are not. Abundance is part of the human experience. Share.

It’s okay to be bored, even though the whole world offers itself to you as the greatest adventure ever created. Boredom is a part of the human experience.

It’s okay to take the leap of faith, even when others see no answer. Faith and falling, miraculous risings, are all part of the human experience.

It’s okay to be sick. It’s okay to get well. It’s okay to let go at the appointed hour, and become free from the delusions of body and mind. Even death is a valid part of the human experience.

It’s okay to live in the tension of desire and duality. It’s okay to live in wonder and curiosity. It’s okay to believe in your impossible dream, and live into it, or watch it turn to dust. It’s all part of the human experience.

It’s okay to seek out ways of living that cultivate beauty, happiness, peace. These too are part of the human experience.

We are a resourceful people:human beings. We adapt and adjust and go on, but when we come to see we are adapting to harm, trauma and misalignment, we are invited to access our creativity. Our freedom of choice.

It’s okay to heal. It’s okay to call on the hummingbird of happiness. It’s okay to pursue the sweetness of life. To seek alignment with our highest governing truths. To do so without permission, approval or attendance. It’s okay that you cannot drag the world with you towards your utopia.

Go that way.
Go that way.~

Nothing evolves us like Love.

There is
The rising up
From light's embrace

You can see in a summer field or
In a child's dancing.

Every city is a dulcimer
That plays it's chorus against
Our ears.

The lid of a pot starts jumping
When water gets ecstatic from fire.

If I ever don't complete a sentence
While we are together
Accept my apologies and try to understand
This sweet drunk thought.

Birds initially had no desire to fly,
What really happened was this:

God once sat close to them
playing Music.
When He left
They missed him so much

Their great longing sprouted wings,
Needing to search the Sky.

Nothing evolves us like Love.

~ Hafiz

THE LIE OF HAPPINESS

We are not meant to feel happy and inspired all the time. We are not meant to be joyful and full of energy all the time. We are not meant to be “up” all the time.

The Unconscious has no interest in being "up". It only wants Truth.

Our hearts are so vast and can hold so much life; so much sorrow and loneliness as well as joy. We are meant to feel down sometimes! We are meant to touch into the depths of human sorrow sometimes. To feel disconnected, lost and without answers sometimes. These are also sacred experiences. And portals to compassion.

For the deeper we touch into our own pain, the more we can understand the pain of our brothers and sisters.

It is imperative that we make room for the so-called “negative” aspects of psyche. If we feel down, let’s feel down, completely! If we feel lonely, let’s learn to lean a little into our loneliness. If we feel lost, let’s allow “the lost one” in, allow her to come home to us.

Instead of rushing for quick fixes, distractions and solutions, let’s open our hearts to the ‘unloved’ parts inside.

The pressure to be “up” all the time is literally making people sick. The pressure to feel "inspired and positive and energized 24/7” is murdering souls.

Slow down, today, friend. Have the courage to touch into the dark places now - the loneliness, the rage, the boredom, the 'negative' and 'unwanted' energies inside. You will discover, they are really full of intelligence, full of beauty and creativity – and full of Light!