It seems that my life is in limbo. Everything seems to be waiting for that moment when I see you... and when I see you, everything blooms around me. The love I feel for you swells in my heart, it radiates from me, making me beautiful. People compliment me and I smile saying thank you. In my heart, I say a grateful prayer to you, for it is the fact that you, my true love, walk on this earth, in this dimension that fills me with love, grace, beauty and truth.

I sit alone and smile, running in my head, over and over again, the brief conversation we have. I speak of things mundane and you listen, attentively. But do you know that the only thing I really yearn for is to be alone with you for a few moments, so that I could look at you,  before I just hold you tight, gently, letting all my love seep into you... and hoping that you love me back, even if it is for that moment only.

I will carry that moment with me, letting it nourish me for ever after. This love, this amazing, gracious, passionate love... is not bound by time.

Yet, these are just my thoughts, my innermost desires... that I do not express to you directly. How can I? I dont know you, I feel you. And you may be very happy in your life, what right does true love have to disturb someone else just to fulfill its self? So, I smile at my longing and thank you for existing, saying a silent prayer for your happiness and joy with every breath.

 Nothing can destroy love. If it is there, it goes on growing. But my feeling is, it is not there in the first place. You misunderstood yourself; something else was there. Maybe sex was there, sex appeal was there. Then it is going to be destroyed, because once you have loved a woman, then the sex appeal disappears -- because the sex appeal is only with the unknown. Once you have tasted the body of the woman or the man, then the sex appeal disappears.

If your love was only sex appeal then it is bound to disappear. So never misunderstand love for something else. If love is really love.... What do I mean when I say 'really love'? I mean that just being in the presence of the other you feel suddenly happy, just being together you feel ecstatic, just the very presence of the other fulfills something deep in your heart... something starts singing in your heart, you fall into harmony. Just the very presence of the other helps you to be together; you become more individual, more centered, more grounded. Then it is love.

Love is not a passion, love is not an emotion. Love is a very deep understanding that somebody somehow completes you. Somebody makes you a full circle. The presence of the other enhances your presence. Love gives freedom to be yourself; it is not possessiveness. So, watch. Never think of sex as love, otherwise you will be deceived.

Be alert, and when you start feeling with someone that just the presence, the pure presence -- nothing else, nothing else is needed; you don't ask anything -- just the presence, just that the other is, is enough to make you happy... something starts flowering within you, a thousand and one lotuses bloom... then you are in love, and then you can pass through all the difficulties that reality creates. Many anguishes, many anxieties -- you will be able to pass all of them, and your love will be flowering more and more, because all those situations will become challenges. And your love, by overcoming them, will become more and more strong.

Love is eternity. If it is there, then it goes on growing and growing. Love knows the beginning but does not know the end.~

And thats how I love you... its not that I dont want to make love to you... I do! But you know what I really want even more... or if we are ever together what I am longing to do? Sleep in your arms!! hahahaa yes! Really... just snuggle into you and sleep!! Just the thought fillls me with so many feelings!! And I do that I sleep with your thoughts! Like a baby!

Stay blessed! Stay you! Be happy and abundant!