Tonight I was talking to the full moon about you...Sitting in my balcony, listening to sweet songs, I looked at the beautiful, yellow moon, hanging low. Looking like a comforting best friend. I reached out to him, gave him a hug and started to tell him about you. I told the moon about how much I love you. I told him to shine down on you...to illuminate the stardust in you so that when you look in the mirror, you see what I see! You can see why I love you...

I told him about all the simple dreams I had about the life we may have had together. I told about my wish to hold your hands, to wanting to shower sweet kisses on you every morning and sometimes nibble your ear and tickle the back of your neck! He laughed at me and called me naughty! And then smiled and said you can be naughty with the one you love.

I told him about how I would learn to make tea (or coffee) the way you liked it and how sometimes I would delibrately make it another way!! Just to tease you a little :) How I would light up every evening after you came back home from a long day... how I would try and fill your life with love, joy and the magic in ordinary, little things. I told him how much I wanted your life to be not just duty but full of life and enthusiasm... vibrant and just delightful.

Then I showed him my broken heart and all the love it held for you. He promised me that he would give it all to you. But said "I will leave a little behind for you". I shook my head and told him to take it all. As I just have to say your name and my heart is full again!

 Love is what everyone deep down longs for, but which everyone is immensely afraid of. Love is the most blissful state of consciousness one can have, yet the scariest one. Love is healing, but it can also be painful. 

Most people talk about love, but not many of them seem loving or willing to love. Love is wanted by all, but only a few dare to ever come close to it.

Love seems threatening to most people’s eyes. Why? Because love is, in a sense, death — the death of ego. To love means to let go, to surrender your sense of self and get lost in the embrace of the beloved — it means to dissolve the boundaries between the I and You. This, however, is a dangerous thing to do — from the ego’s standpoint. To the ego, love is evil, and hence something to be avoided by all means. The ego has an identity that took a long time to be built, and nothing is more frightening to the ego than that identity being taken away from it. If it’s taken away from it, then the ego will cease to exist. Hence the ego does anything to reassure itself of its identity — it tries to make its presence known all the time — and the best way it achieves that is by trying to create a clear-cut divide between itself and others. To the ego, the world is filled with egos — and egos are separate from one another. There is a big wall between me and you, the ego believes, that divides us.

In moments of love, the artificial wall between the self and other is broken down, and the illusion of separateness starts to fade away. The ego melts in the presence of love — the lover and the beloved become one singular consciousness. Feeling the burning presence of love, the ego is scared to death, and in its effort to escape from love, it’s screaming loud at you, trying to talk you away from love so as to convince you to not let go of it. 

Let Love Kill You

No matter what your ego is telling you, don’t pay attention to it. Or tell it to shut up, and offer yourself to the fire of love. Surrender to it totally. Let love be the master and be its servant. Let it destroy you completely.

Trust me, there’s nothing better in life than dying… from love. It is a sweet death, and once you’ve died as an ego, you’ll be reborn as the best version of yourself. And then your life will be completely transformed.

Once you feel the touch of love, you’ll not be the same again. You’ll not feel small, lonely and afraid — you’ll be greater than you’ve ever felt before. You’ll be more alive than you could ever imagine. You’ll be centered, at peace, and nothing will be able to disturb your inner stillness. You’ll live at ease and in love with existence.

 We are arriving at a point in time where spiritual gurus and teachers who flaunt their, “all about love” strategy for the awakening of self, will no longer be able to hide behind masks of nuanced esotericism. The counterfactual guru, the one who bathes in infinite light, swimming in the raw verbiage of their own transcendental poetry, will drift downstream, away from the depth, struggles, and awkwardness that is the human experience. The followers will stare as their master becomes so “go-with-the-flow” oriented that he/she drifts directly into what we call positive passivism. Positive passivism is when you become so deeply detached from reality that you no longer honor, potentially the most important spiritual principle, discernment/critical thinking.

Some of the students will follow their leader into a haze of naivete, while others will begin to poke and prod at the very elements that proliferated this person into power to begin with. It could become a, “What is my spiritual guru doing next to Jeffrey Epstein” moment (slightly satire).

We, as a collective, have lost connection to the fine art of spiritual skepticism. Spirituality is embodying all aspects of the self, including the animalistic instinct that is not afraid to hiss, roar, and scream when its very nature, freedom, or children (especially children) are threatened. The 90’s and early 2,000’s brought us waves of spiritual passivism, illustrating and promoting teachers who use light, love, and happiness as beacons of ultimate truth, while neglecting the individual shadow that each one of us came here to integrate, heal, and observe. This leads to a sort of disconnect, where light-hearted teachings put towards the realm of love are so out of proportion to the human shadow, that the teachers and their students dissociate from the human experience entirely.

Have you ever dissociated before? If you have ever dealt with chronic dissociation, you have probably felt a level of discomfort arise when entering into a dissociative spell. This is because repeatedly dissociating, even in attempt to marry God, is not organic to the human being. We came here to explore human sentience, not to cut ourselves off from it. A collective grouping of people who have chronically dissociated from the pure impulse, instinct, and existence of their own human nature creates an incredibly vulnerable, and dangerous setting.

The spiritual teachers I look to carry discernment as a leading principle, a guiding force and protector of their initiated esoteric wisdom. They honor my instinct and hold space for me to disagree with them, to walk to the beat of my own drum. They never intend to sculpt my mind to fulfill their egoic need for unstable emotional gratification, as that is tended to in the realm of their own shadow work, not between the relationship we carry. I will also add, I know and interact with them personally, removing the overrated starstruck haze that can serve as a distraction to the process of genuine teaching and alignment.

The integrated spiritual teacher inspires you to think for yourself, to be your own conduit/channel to divine understanding. Revel in your own truth, and all that is holy will join you, while all that is ill-intentioned will gently fall away.~