To be happy you have to be able to live from the heart. The courage to trust and follow no matter what. To have the Heart.
In fact the word “Courage” has the same Latin route as the French word “coeur” meaning “heart”.
The Courage to live from the heart. To have HEART. To travel at the speed of Love.
What do you Love? What makes you feel happy, not just think that you might be happy. Follow it.
Your heart knowing will take you there every time.
Be honest with yourself and Trust your Heart and action it.

I So Love You
*****************
PS: And to follow your Heart is not to follow your emotions. which pull you through a "neediness".
Heart propels you through honesty, integrity, authenticity, sovereign Beingness.
And I am told that the speed of love is "the speed of light squared". I have never measured it. All I know is that it appears instantaneous because as soon as I feel it, it is EVERYWHERE.

One year ago, my life changed forever...

Hello, my love! So, today it is exactly one year of my heart and dreams being broken into a trillion pieces! Yet here I am, alive, smiling, happy (sometimes sad) ... you know why? Because I love you... :)

I remember the three days after this day one year ago, I just lay in bed, crying, didnt eat bathe felt like I had died. And how my Father held me in His embrace... He let me vent and fight with Him... and on the 4th day, He just gently picked me up and siad enough, get up and I did. Can I ever thank Him enough for being there for me? My joy and my smile is my thanks to Him.

And you... you who I just love with all my heart and soul, I had hoped body too. But that didnt happened. You who I don't even look at as much as I would like to. Because I know my eyes will give my love away... and now this love is just for me and the whole world, but cannot express to you. So you know what I did? I turned all this love towards myself and started treating myself the way I would have loved you. Because I want this love even if it has broken my heart to be my strength, my smile never ever my weakness (it is sometimes my tears, when I cry and cry but it is only love that I cannot give you so it flows from my eyes). Love is love even when it is not reciprocated. I mean you are a beautiful soul, and I cannot deny seeing that even if you are not part of my life. A good person will always be a good person. And our hearts should be big enough to acknowledge that.

I pray that you never ever know because I would never want you to feel sad in anyway and oh please never feel sorry for me. If anything, be proud of me. That even if I have mothing, I still hope and pray and smile and dance. That I have the courage to keep my heart open. That I trust in love, goodness, smiles, and have faith in everything working out the way it is meant to. Even if we dont always understand it.

And you know how I sit sedately when you are near when all I want to is run and hug you haha I imagine your look if I ever did that. But I never will as your dignity means so much to me. But sometimes I look at you and just want to kiss your nose and bite your hands lolol. I am so grateful for this safe space where I can record my feelings quietly so my heart lightens.

So when the desire to love you just makes me burst I kiss my palms and pray... for your happiness in every sphere of life, for your family as I know how much their well being means to you... I pray that you never have a sad moment and even if you do you always find the strength to live through them, that each day of your life is simple, peaceful, filled with smiles and delightful moments.

I hope my love reaches you without you knwoing its me and it makes you feel just so good about yourself, makes you walk tall and fill your heart with love.

I just love you!

Become loving. When you are in the embrace, become the embrace. Become the kiss. Forget yourself so totally that you can say, “I am no more. Only love exists.” Then the heart is not beating, but love is beating. Then the blood is not circulating, but love is circulating. Then eyes are not seeing, love is seeing. Then hands are not moving to touch, love is moving to touch. Become love and enter everlasting life. Love suddenly changes your dimension. You are thrown out of time and you are facing eternity. Love can become a deep meditation, the deepest possible. Lovers have known sometimes what saints have not known.

My heart, the bird of the wilderness,
has found its sky in your eyes.

They are the cradle of the morning,
they are the kingdom of the stars.

My songs are lost in their depths.
Let me but soar in that sky,
in its lonely immensity.

Let me but cleave its clouds
and spread wings in its sunshine.

Hands cling to hands and eyes linger on eyes
thus begins the record of our hearts.

Is it true, is it true,
that our love travelled alone through ages and worlds
in search of each other.

This love between you and me is simple as a song.

~ Rabindranath Tagore
From The Gardener

Often, it takes a cracking open of your outer shell—some part of your life where you can't make sense of things, where you run into an obstacle you can't control or manipulate—to return you to the holy place within that can fuel and source a meaningful life. It is the events, circumstances, and experiences in the outer world that will ultimately expose the illusions that keep you stuck inside your human shell.

You may have to lose your job or your money, experience the loss of a loved one or a betrayal, or become consumed by an out-of-control addiction to push past the closed doors of your ego's mind. I can assure you that all your challenges are there for one reason only: to turn you inward, and regardless of how you arrived here—through a desire to grow, a silent unhappiness, or a painful cracking open of the self—this cleanse bridges the gap between the internal and the external, so that you can return to your soul's deepest purpose by reconnecting to your divine essence.

New Ways of Being

Do you fully realise that the Universe is unfolding perfectly and everything has its place and is in perfect harmony with the whole?
You are an essential piece in this Grande singularity.
Do you get that you are Eternal? Do you get that you are in the perfect place and time ALWAYS? 
So you really can relax.
The Flow, the Divine Flow, is within and around you constantly. It cannot be controlled. That was the illusion, that was the seed of all fears, that was the loss of freedom.
You do not have to try anymore to get somewhere. You are there (Here really).
There is absolutely nowhere else better than where you are NOW.
You are in Earth embodiment recreating your Heaven through the restoration of self and transformation to your Self.
As soon as you stop trying, second guessing, planning, seeking you will immediately begin to see that you already have arrived at that great ‘final’ destination you have been seeking.
It is here and now.
And it is not one point, and yet is IS, One Eternal Flowing, ever moving, changing, expanding, creating. The, Joy, and everlasting peace will instantly show up as the 'background" to your Being, when you have accepted that you are Home and let go to allow it to appear within You..
Now the glorious adventure can continue. Everything is laid out before you in never ending surprise packages of expansion and joy. Fears drop away, blocks drop away, pain is released, suffering, unsafe, lack, need are disintegrated.
Allow feelings to arise and leave, speak to the little mind (*thought patterns ) in tones of your Lovingness. Move from unwakefulness, through the ‘haze, into the Dream of ‘“in between”, to Masterhood.
Relax and allow the New “Game” to unfold.

Love is the key. 
Love is the Allowance of the Grace and the energy of ONE. 
Love is the movement of the Mother through you and the stillness of the Father anchored in you. 
It is the interconnectedness and the state of Divine Union. 
Love is the being of that state of HOME. 
It has descended and you have been penetrated more than you can imagine at this time (Sacred Self Presence). 
Recognising that You are the essence of One, waking up is not just about you rejoining. It is about you CONSTANTLY allowing and remembering the truth and the wholeness of who you have always been. 
You have always carried the essence of Love. The quantum leap is simply you breaking away from the story of “Am I loved, am I lovable. Am I LOVE?” to the full acceptance that you are Love and that everything and everyone carries the same Essence. 
The only thing you are leaving behind is a Drama, a story. The movie of “out there” that was created by a “Shadow” of Humanity in its ‘darkest “hour to control and temporarily prevent Self from remembering. 
It is OVER now. We are not getting or running away from anything. We are stepping into what is real and what has always been, facing the continual choice of the True from the false.
It is entirely different to any other incarnation because you are choosing to allow the Truth of your abilities to Shine through. 
Gaia can now restore her full glory without tolerating the impact of the cruel drama you have been enacting with yourself. 
And as these things are streaming from your body, yu are often feeling lighter, giddy and extremely fatigued. 
Lie down and surrender to the Love of who you are. And because you can only put energy in for short spurts does not mean that nothing is being done.
Haven’t you felt the growing stillness within and the dissolving of the old fears. It is in this stillness where so much is being accomplished. 
In fact much, much more than you ever accomplished working hard all day. 
This is the New Way the way of 5th dimensional Beingness. 
LESS IS MORE because in your Lovingness and the simplicity of Being, there is the Knowing and there is a Miraculous effortless economy of doing and of creating.

Only two fulfilled persons can relate.

To relate is one of the greatest things of life:
to relate means to love,
to relate means to share.

But before you can share, you must have.

And before you can love you must be full of love, overflowing with love.

Two seeds cannot relate, they are closed.
Two flowers can relate; they are open,
they can send their fragrances to each other, they
can dance in the same sun and in the same wind,
they can have a dialogue, they can whisper.

The Yogi looked so serene and inviting, that the snake wanted to pour his heart out. All he could utter, was, “I am known to bite even those who feed me, so no one accepts me anymore.”
“Come! Wrap yourself around my neck in embrace”, said the Yogi. “I am known to accept those who are shunned”.
“You ask for me to embrace you simply on the premise that I feel shunned?” asked the snake.
“Yes, I ask everyone to embrace me”, said the Yogi. “Everyone is shunned by someone else. The poor, for example, are shunned by the rich. The rich by the religious, some people shun themselves; even the spiritual are shunned by many. I am a lover of all”.

~The Yogi And The Snake

'When a man is ready to discover his true self, the journey will usually take him in the opposite direction to which he has been traveling … away from the highway of the ego-mind, to the narrow path that leads to the heart.

If he is open to loving a woman, it’s in this place he recognises that she is pivotal to the growth of his soul; that she has such a deep réservoir of love within, waiting for him to experience, far beyond anything he has ever imagined. And he comes to understand that this secret paradise has remained hidden from him because the eyes of his heart were not open to see it. This is where he hears her call his name from the depths of his soul. And for the first time, he becomes conscious of what it means to passionately love and adore a woman with his whole being.

There, together, the man and woman’s souls are joined as they enter into what can only be described as divine love ... that which the Creator always intended for us to enjoy. In this beautiful place of surrendering to each other, the two love with a new spiritual and intimate understanding, while at the same time, unlocking their own greatness as they discover their oneness and united purpose for being.'~

~ Daniel Nielsen

On listening to gossip or facing an argument.

Gossip and under cover, finger pointing, judgement and separation is rife in so called "spiritual communities".
What is in it for you or the other. Do you really have to participate? Think peace rather than noise.
LOVE is not jealousy, name calling, "I'm better than you" "I'm more on the path than you". I have better tools" "I've been doing it longer". "I coming from a higher dimension"... and so many more subtle and not so subtle ways of judging others against yourself or judging yourself against others.
Haven't you realised that your path is totally and perfectly mapped out for your perfect alignment if only you would Trust and follow your own Heart and Higher Self promptings?
And "Mind you own business".

Choose to be with your internal Smile. And always silence over trying to be right.
Say “No” when it is necessary that the other know where you stand but otherwise find the place of Presence within yourself, see that same place in the other and hold your tongue.
And never be afraid to walk away without judgement but with Love in your Heart, or “walking tall” in your Lovingness for All.

PS And it is not about convincing me that you are beyond all this. It is about your own inner knowing of how loving you are and can be.
If you want to break your own dramas stay out of the dramas of others for a start, and be unafraid to be seen to withdraw. What kind of pleasure is it to enjoy the sharing of others misery?
Next stop repeat telling of your story. What kind of glory do you create by forever dumping your moods on others. There is a subtle pressure for your past misery mastered to become a badge of merit that gives you bragging rights to puff yourself up. 

Everyone wears a pearl gladly.
But Shiva,
He wraps the snake around His neck as call.
Everyone takes measure of their kingdoms,
large or homely small.
But Shiva,
He looks skyward,
embracing All.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B76PUvlzzB0&list=PLXdNI5smwBLI6cyCFh4TO2-bqFc-6U0lQ&index=3

http://reveredhinduism.blogspot.com/2016/07/suvarnamala-stuti.html

Unending Love

I seem to have loved you in numberless forms, numberless times...
In life after life, in age after age, forever.
My spellbound heart has made and remade the necklace of songs,
That you take as a gift, wear round your neck in your many forms,
In life after life, in age after age, forever.

Whenever I hear old chronicles of love, it's age old pain,
It's ancient tale of being apart or together.
As I stare on and on into the past, in the end you emerge,
Clad in the light of a pole-star, piercing the darkness of time.
You become an image of what is remembered forever.

You and I have floated here on the stream that brings from the fount.
At the heart of time, love of one for another.
We have played along side millions of lovers,
Shared in the same shy sweetness of meeting,
the distressful tears of farewell,
Old love but in shapes that renew and renew forever.

Today it is heaped at your feet, it has found its end in you
The love of all man's days both past and forever:
Universal joy, universal sorrow, universal life.
The memories of all loves merging with this one love of ours -
And the songs of every poet past and forever.”

― Rabindranath Tagore, Selected Poems

The ache of a broken heart...

You and me... a beautiful, hazy dream
I saw us bathed in love's golden stream

I thought we'd be simple together
I thought we'd be happy together
I thought we'd be limitless together
I thought we'd be precious together
I thought we'd be forever together

I thought you'd see me
I thought you'd feel me
I thought you'd realise me
I thought you'd hold me
I thought you'd love me

But I was sadly mistaken.

Now I sit with the pieces of a broken dream
that keep me warm and a sad smile
that belies the deep sorrow that
your love has carved into my soul.

What a huge price to pay for a simple dream of love
What a heavy burden for a light intent of love

I just wish I knew what to do now...
I just wish I felt a little less lost...

And amidst all the tears I laugh too...
Because I didn't even get to really look my fill of you!

"When soul meets soul, magic happens.
Pretence falls away.
One becomes authentic and real.

There is no need to hide any part of ourselves, for we stand naked, vulnerable, but with this, our highest soul truth can emerge, our shadow and light.

We can voice our inner-most thoughts, we can share our inner-most Being, that which makes our souls soar and fly, and that which so often pulls us down.

When soul meets soul, it is more of an energetic exchange, for one is now reading the other, at energetic soul level, for the soul is pure energy.

Lies cannot exist in energy fields, nor can masks and pretence.
The inner eyes will read the energy fields, and it will read what is not authentic and true.

It is when souls are stripped of all the impediments of earthly incarnations, that their highest truth shines through.

All that is left, is pure, unconditional love.
Love without condition.
Love that just openly loves and accepts all as it is.
Love that loves.

And has the wisdom to see the soul in its original truthful splendour, as the Divine sees it and loves it just the way it is"~

WHAT IS LOVE?

Love is a beggar
as taught by those
who use it as a weapon

Love is hard work 
according to those
who do not know it’s
purpose and power

Love is a bomb
ticking away inside
the chest of the fearfully
wounded

Love is a lure
tucked into a trap
by those who seek to
use it for control

Love is a school
say the ones who
know not how to
practice it’s full potency

And love is a dream
say those who lost it

I say love is none
of these on it’s own

And only becomes these
when twisted by the minds
of those who fail to grasp
the concept of love’s freedoms

Love is a frequency
an ever present signal
pulsing and pulling

beckoning without chase
A calling with no pursuit

Love is an open door
and a permanently playing song
just waiting for the volume
to be turned up

Love has no
requirement
save one

The choice
to receive it

Love has no condition

except the willingness
to let it in

And love has no source

For love is the source itself.~

She

For the love of a tree..
She went out on a limb.
For the love of the sea..
She rocked the boat.
For the love of the earth..
She dug deeper.
For the love of community..
She mended fences.
For the love of the stars..
She let her light shine.
For the love of spirit..
She nurtured her soul.
For the love of a good time..
She sowed seeds of happiness.
For the love of the Goddess..
She drew down the moon.
For the love of nature..
She made compost.
For the love of a good meal..
She gave thanks.
For the love of family..
She reconciled differences.
For the love of creativity..
She entertained new possibilities.
For the love of her enemies..
She suspended judgment.
For the love of herself..
She acknowledged her worth.
And the world was richer for her.

Last night, Maa appeared in my dream...

It must have been the wee hours of morning, the time when the birds start stirring with life... and the sun hangs low, waiting to bring the world to its feet once again. When she came and sat next to me, I felt the mattress dip and I woke up with a start and it was my mother, long gone from this world, looking as radiant and beautiful as ever. She was smiling yet looked anxious. I said "Maa, is everything okay? You hardly ever visit me..." and she stroked my forehead and said "I know the heartbreak you have experienced in the last few months. I am worried and afraid for you."

Tell me, my rabbit (her nickname for me)... tell me about him. I looked at her, lowered my eyes and said softly "Maa I love him. It is as simple and as beautiful as that. I have read about it and we even discussed about love in the books we read. I never thought I'd experience my soul actually be another's half... I thought it happens only in imagination or fiction. But it has happened to me. I love him with all my being, my heart and soul. I would give my life for him in a second, without thought if I just know it needs to be done for his happiness and peace. I see him, not just the handsome, soft yet strong man he appears to be. I see his heart, full of love and gentleness. I see the kindness in him. I see how he always puts others before him and has all his life. I wanted to be someone who puts him first. He is a beautiful and pure heart... and I cherish him. I adore him."

She nodded and said "But, child, he doesn't love you. He does not even know this." I said "I know and it's okay. Love does not want anything except the opportunity to be received, to be given. Anything that craves possession is a factor of our ego, Maa. I just wanted to be his strength, the way he would have been mine. I wanted to hold his hand and journey through life. I wanted to be a smile on his face and a reason for his joy. I wanted to love him and his family and just be grateful to be a part of such a man's life. But, sometimes, no matter how altruistic and pure our thought and intention maybe, life flows in another direction. We just have to accept it. It did feel like for a moment, that he sees me. But I was mistaken. It would have been a reward of many lifetimes to have this dream manifest... maybe I have to be more deserving of a love like this." 

She sighed and said "But have you thought of yourself? Your future?"  I smiled and said "You know me, Maa. I have never been someone who is worried or afraid about the future. I just go from day to day wanting to make the best of whatever comes my way. I have learnt that you cannot second guess or plan life too minutely. And being afraid of a tomorrow that may never come, only robs us of the joy in today which is before us."

She nodded and said "I could never make you worldwise. You were always my crazy little girl with a heart as vast as the sky. I could never make you be afraid of this world. I just wanted you to be happy, my little one. What about marriage? Who will look after you?" 

"Look at me, Maa... see how I shine? See my smile? Where do you think it comes from... a happiness, deeply rooted in my heart. I am blessed to have this heart. People get married, are in relationships are they all happy? Sadly, no. I am so lucky (maybe not in the eyes of this world) to have this love. At least I know the someone I really want is here, is alive. Even from afar, I know someone I TRULY want to pray for. How many people even couples, really love their partners so? They stay together for the sake of society and convention, yet remain unfulfilled in their being. See me, Maa, I am LOVE. I have this love that will sustain me forever. I will see him once in a while and if I see that he is happy and content. I will smile inwardly and sing a song. I will keep on meeting people with an open heart and mind and as for looking after me, see Him. He is my strength, no not the man I love... HIM. My divine father, who now, walks with me with every step. Maa, I trust HIM and believe me, Woh kabhi mera bura nahin hone denge. He knows the reason behind every sorrow and joy. I am now in HIS hands. You need not worry." 

She looked relieved and touched my cheek "Any regrets?"

I said "Well, not exactly regret but sometimes, I do feel sad that I could not even tell him, I really wanted to hold his hands and just tell him that I love him. This emotion sometimes falls from my eyes. It is just love that could not be expressed that flows as tears." 

She then held my close to her bosom and said "Make a wish, Lopa." 

"Maa, my wish is that in anyway, without creating any disturbance or ever being a frown on his face, may my love be his strength just the way it is my courage. And Maa, do this for me just one time, go as a soft breeze and ruffle his hair, caress his cheek, bringing him a moment of sudden relief and calm which he just feels and cannot explain."

She laughed and gently slapped my cheek and said "I will." 

A beautiful poem by Rumi.

I will be waiting here

For the grey sky to cry

For your suspicions to die

For you to really try

I will be waiting here

For the white snow to melt

For the roses to be smelt

For you to feel what I felt

I will be waiting here

For the moments to pass

For the memories to last

For you to break that glass

I will be waiting here

For the ships to sail on the sea

For the clock to strike three

For you to believe in me

I will be waiting here

For your silence to break

For your soul to shake

For your love to wake

~ Rumi

Life IS! You choose what to make of it!

LIFE IN ITSELF IS NOT MEANINGFUL It is meaningful only if you can sing a song of the eternal, if you can release some fragrance of the divine, of the godly, if you can become a lotus flower -- deathless, timeless.

If you can become pure love, if you can beautify this existence, IF YOU CAN BECOME A BLESSING TO THIS EXISTENCE, only then life has significance; otherwise it is pointless. It is like an empty canvas: you can go on carrying it your whole life and you can die under its weight, but what is the point? PAINT SOMETHING ON IT!

Meaning has to be created in life; meaning is not given already. You are given freedom, you are given creativity, you are given life. All that is needed to create meaning is given. All the essential ingredients of meaning are given, but meaning is not given, MEANING HAS TO BE CREATED BY YOU. You have to become a creator in your own right.

AND WHEN YOU BECAME A CREATOR in your own right, you participate with God, YOU BECOME A PART OF GOD.